The "Fuck my life" thread

[copulatingduck]

[quote author=Duck link=topic=3709.msg240892#msg240892 date=1331625560]
Apparently telling the girl that wants to get a place together "Look, I know we're awesome together, but I need some space for a little while and need to put some of this on hold" because you disappear for a few weeks to help sort out a dead family member's estate is the dating equivalent of hitting the eject button.

Ohwell. I think being gay would be a lot easier sometimes

Did you tell her the reason was for said dead family member's estate?

I had that happen to me last year, but it was in a much, much earlier stage.
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Didn't wanna be a downer, so not until it was apparently too late. :S

[zaneyard]

Sorry duck. If it makes you feel any better I lift weights and shit and I'm still single.

[Live-Free-Or-Pie]

DOWNER ALERT -- HERE COMES THE PAIN -- READ AT YOUR OWN RISK

I am in New Hampshire now and it looks like ill be staying for a longer term right now.

Unfortunately, my father is still here mentally but he took a massive physical decline as I was putting the plans into place. His speech is adequate. He cannot get out of bed or do anything unassisted right now. I have said my peace, so if he dies right now I and he have no regrets. No video and no audio, i know he dosen't want to be remembered like this.

We just did the will today and he couldn't make the signature unassisted. I fucking broke down when I saw that. I hate seeing him like this. He always  did so much to help other people and he's visibly frustrated because he can't even meet his own needs. After 6 years of DC/MD... The empty geography of my neck of the woods in MA/NH has always symbolized loneliness for me when I was outcast in high school, that and the pain from this current situation are giving me a physical revulsion from being in NH. (so don't be surprised if I shorten my screen name in the near future ). I also fucking hate nursing homes, my first traumatic brush with a dying relative involved a lot of time at one and I just cant stand them. (The people who work in them are stronger than me)

He is suffering and we're suffering right now. I wish he could stop suffering right now.

We're going to try to get him home for the end. the shittiest part is that we don't know when... Doctors give him three weeks but they don't know undetermined. Ugh.

Fuck this place and fuck my situation right now.

[at0m]

I wish I didn't, but I know exactly how you're feeling right now.

Much <3.

[rumsfald]

I wish I didn't, but I know exactly how you're feeling right now.

Much <3.

[Versus]

well, i don't really know how that feels, but

[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg241032#msg241032 date=1331756537]
Much <3.

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[matter11]

my thoughts are with you pie.

maybe playing his favorite music or reading from his favorite book to him would help everyone relax a bit.

[TOH]

[quote author=rumsfald link=topic=3709.msg241038#msg241038 date=1331760462]
[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg241032#msg241032 date=1331756537]
Much <3.

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Thoughts and prayers are with you, Pie.

[Didzo]

My thoughts are with you and your family.

[CaffeinePowered]

well, i don't really know how that feels, but

[quote author=rumsfald link=topic=3709.msg241038#msg241038 date=1331760462]
[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg241032#msg241032 date=1331756537]
Much <3.

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This ^


I hope you got that recording done, if not get it done quickly while he is still cognitive. Use an audio recorder if you can't do video at this point.

[[SiN] Merc]

[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg241032#msg241032 date=1331756537]
I wish I didn't, but I know exactly how you're feeling right now.

Much <3.

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[A. Crow]

[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg241032#msg241032 date=1331756537]
I wish I didn't, but I know exactly how you're feeling right now.

Much <3.

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[Vongore]

well, i don't really know how that feels, but

[quote author=rumsfald link=topic=3709.msg241038#msg241038 date=1331760462]
[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg241032#msg241032 date=1331756537]
Much <3.

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[Chief]

[quote author=versus link=topic=3709.msg241039#msg241039 date=1331760707]
well, i don't really know how that feels, but

[quote author=rumsfald link=topic=3709.msg241038#msg241038 date=1331760462]
[quote author=at0m link=topic=3709.msg241032#msg241032 date=1331756537]
Much <3.

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[ThunderStain]

Sorry to hear about what your going through pie. I had a grandmother pass from multiple brain tumours and the last few years of her life she was for the most part a vegetable.  I was a child but never really understood death/ the weight of the situation at the time and it sucks only knowing what she was like from my dad or pictures.

Tonight I was watching hockey with the only friend I have left in town and a wave of depression hit me so hard I had to leave and I feel. Like shit. I cant sleep. I chugged a bunch of beers and drank half a bottle of booze im trying to get to sleep but my sleep schedule is fucked and I cant feel it. I feel like an asshole posting and feeling like shit after reading what pie is going through but this is the most depressed ive ever felt sober and I honestly dont know what to do.

[Vlambo]

Wait, Thundee, you back in Lab City?

[ThunderStain]

Wait, Thundee, you back in Lab City?

Yeah I stayed home after xmas cause I hated engineering haha. Im on the waiting list for the para-medicine programs in st johns and halifax just waiting to see which one opens up first.

[Vlambo]

[quote author=Vlambo link=topic=3709.msg241112#msg241112 date=1331824468]
Wait, Thundee, you back in Lab City?

Yeah I stayed home after xmas cause I hated engineering haha. Im on the waiting list for the para-medicine programs in st johns and halifax just waiting to see which one opens up first.
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Ah cool. Makes sense.

[Live-Free-Or-Pie]

I feel like an asshole posting and feeling like shit after reading what pie is going through....

Thunderstain,

Your fml post belongs in this thread with mine, depression hurts, don't bottle anything up b/c of me. Get it out and feel better.

[zaneyard]

i don't think drinking is a good idea when you're depressed just sayin