(04-20-2010, 12:01 PM)Trick_ link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=zaneyard link=topic=2632.msg147808#msg147808 date=1271782115]
Just realized the 8-10 hours a day I spend playing video games doesn't contribute a whole lot to my life. Ordered a keyboard stand and I'm gonna start learning to play the 500 some dollars of hardware I bought and hardly used. Maybe then I'll be able to make something interesting for the first time in my life.
It's cool that you want to make changes. Iâm in the middle of a similar process, and I agree that playing video games all of the time isnât going to do anything for your life.
You donât have to be down on yourself though. Even if your life isnât where you want to it be.
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not really down on myself
just kinda making a note to get off my ass
it's just that lately i've went from staying on top of my homework (even if it was done last minute), waking up at a reasonable time (not to mention actually going to class), and keeping things clean and tidy, to just not giving a shit.
summer is approaching, I can go running and get myself in shape again.
not really going anywhere, I'm just going to try to use gaming as a fun thing again, and not something that consumes my life.
i can't even count how many times i've thought to myself how bored i was, and there was nothing to do, when i could be doing something but instead just launch up another game of tf2 or something.
(04-20-2010, 12:37 PM)zaneyard link Wrote: [ -> ]to just not giving a shit.
summer is approaching
Yea...I don't think I can ever recall a moment while in school where I actually cared during the last month or so.
(04-20-2010, 12:43 PM)Caffeine link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=zaneyard link=topic=2632.msg147825#msg147825 date=1271785078]
to just not giving a shit.
summer is approaching
Yea...I don't think I can ever recall a moment while in school where I actually cared during the last month or so.
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yeah, but i've been on the ball pretty much my entire life
(04-20-2010, 12:45 PM)zaneyard link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=Caffeine link=topic=2632.msg147827#msg147827 date=1271785408]
[quote author=zaneyard link=topic=2632.msg147825#msg147825 date=1271785078]
to just not giving a shit.
summer is approaching
Yea...I don't think I can ever recall a moment while in school where I actually cared during the last month or so.
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yeah, but i've been on the ball pretty much my entire life
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Senior-itis, its contagious
Regardless, I need to get going again. Have a degree soon, this is where the important shit starts.
Well, the other parts do sound like a little bit of depression. I get (and kind of am right now) the same way. I just stop caring and would rather sleep.
(04-20-2010, 12:56 PM)Luinbariel link Wrote: [ -> ]Well, the other parts do sound like a little bit of depression. I get (and kind of am right now) the same way. I just stop caring and would rather sleep.
the funny part is i don't feel at all depressed right now or when i wrote it
i do however, feel depressed quite a bit lately
and I know that I'm in control of my life and I just need to make the decision to get things going.
Someone, somewhere said: "Happiness is a choice."
apparently it's also a book
dunno where or when i heard it though
(04-20-2010, 01:00 PM)zaneyard link Wrote: [ -> ]Someone, somewhere said: "Happiness is a choice."
apparently it's also a book
dunno where or when i heard it though
Hey, look
over there!
[tt]Prayer doesn't work because someone out there is listening, it works because someone in here is listening. I've paid attention. I've pictured what I want to happen in my life. I've meditated extensively on my family, my future, my past actions and what did and didn't work for me about them. I've looked hard at problems and thought hard about their solutions.
See, I order my life by the same mechanism that I use to build things. I cannot proceed to move tools around in the real world until my brain has a clear picture in it of what I'm building. The same goes for my life. I've tried to pay attention. I've tried to picture the way I want things to be, and I've noticed that when I had a clear picture, things often turned out the way I wanted them to.
I've concluded by this that someone is paying attentionâI've concluded that it's me. I've noticed that if I'm paying attention to those around me, to myself, to my surroundings, then that is the very definition of empathy. I've noticed that when I pay attention, I'm less selfish, I'm happierâand that the inverse holds true as well. [/tt]
(04-20-2010, 01:08 PM)rumsfald link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=zaneyard link=topic=2632.msg147835#msg147835 date=1271786406]
Someone, somewhere said: "Happiness is a choice."
apparently it's also a book
dunno where or when i heard it though
Hey, look
over there!
[tt]Prayer doesn't work because someone out there is listening, it works because someone in here is listening. I've paid attention. I've pictured what I want to happen in my life. I've meditated extensively on my family, my future, my past actions and what did and didn't work for me about them. I've looked hard at problems and thought hard about their solutions.
See, I order my life by the same mechanism that I use to build things. I cannot proceed to move tools around in the real world until my brain has a clear picture in it of what I'm building. The same goes for my life. I've tried to pay attention. I've tried to picture the way I want things to be, and I've noticed that when I had a clear picture, things often turned out the way I wanted them to.
I've concluded by this that someone is paying attentionâI've concluded that it's me. I've noticed that if I'm paying attention to those around me, to myself, to my surroundings, then that is the very definition of empathy. I've noticed that when I pay attention, I'm less selfish, I'm happierâand that the inverse holds true as well. [/tt]
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Awesome read rummy
It's been a long damn time since I've had that kind of attention span to read something that long.
thanks
Also, thanks to everyone for being here for me. I really appreciate the words of wisdom and company you all offer.
(04-20-2010, 01:00 PM)zaneyard link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=Luinbariel link=topic=2632.msg147834#msg147834 date=1271786203]
Well, the other parts do sound like a little bit of depression. I get (and kind of am right now) the same way. I just stop caring and would rather sleep.
the funny part is i don't feel at all depressed right now or when i wrote it
i do however, feel depressed quite a bit lately
and I know that I'm in control of my life and I just need to make the decision to get things going.
Someone, somewhere said: "Happiness is a choice."
apparently it's also a book
dunno where or when i heard it though
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It does bring up a good point though; that I think can be a real problem. Personally, I love the feeling of success in video games. Iâm aware itâs fake. I just like achieving things, both in real life and in video games. There have been times in my life where I have played video games so much that when I slow down, I feel like I am suddenly accomplishing nothing (when the reality is, I have been accomplishing nothing the whole time).
I think real life success is much harder then success in video games. I also think we have an entire culture based around mocking other peopleâs failure and it makes us really afraid to try. If you fail in a video game, you respawn and get back to it. If you fail in real life, there is just a crushing feeling and weight that follows you around (not to mention people making fun of you).
So yah, I have been there. Just take baby steps to get yourself out of it. Sounds stupid and cheesy, but itâs better to believe in Tony Robbins sounding bullshit then to feel sorry for yourself.
Like i said, I'm really not even unhappy right now. This realization is kinda pushing me to become a better person.
It's just that I look at all this free time that I have, I instead beat a dead horse even if I don't enjoy it as much as I used to.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy playing games, it's that there gets to a point where it gets boring because you've been doing it for the past 8 hours.
I hit that point and instead of deciding to do something else, I just keep doing it because I tell myself that I have nothing else to do, even if in reality, I do have something else I can do.
I need to start working out again, I know this but keep putting it off. On the personal accomplishment end I don't really know how to add much more. I learn a lot trying to help here. I learn a lot trying to debate people elsewhere. I think I'm doing well in my jobs and in getting prepped to go back to school. Video games are just a part of my personal fun time block. I just haven't faced up to the fact it should be shorter to make time for gym and physical fitness maintenance yet.
Also I section up my days into blocks of time like Hugh Grant in About a Boy. I don't really see a problem with this and can't think of a better way to manage your time.
(04-20-2010, 01:38 PM)zaneyard link Wrote: [ -> ]Like i said, I'm really not even unhappy right now. This realization is kinda pushing me to become a better person.
It's just that I look at all this free time that I have, I instead beat a dead horse even if I don't enjoy it as much as I used to.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy playing games, it's that there gets to a point where it gets boring because you've been doing it for the past 8 hours.
I hit that point and instead of deciding to do something else, I just keep doing it because I tell myself that I have nothing else to do, even if in reality, I do have something else I can do.
Yea, this will make you happier. Just don't think that personal fun time is worthless either or you will get burned out.
I need to go back to school. I love to learn, but I don't want commit all my nights and weekends.
Also, I'm 24. I should probably grow up at some point.
(04-20-2010, 01:46 PM)Trick_ link Wrote: [ -> ]I need to go back to school. I love to learn, but I don't want commit all my nights and weekends.
Also, I'm 24. I should probably grow up at some point.
Though I would recommend going back to school, there's nothing wrong with being a kid. You seem well mature to me.
think i'm going to learn to cook too
(04-20-2010, 01:59 PM)zaneyard link Wrote: [ -> ]think i'm going to learn to cook too
Good.
I think maybe an ultimatum might also be good (please note: jokes)
"Stop being sad or I'll rape you"
Easy as that.
(04-20-2010, 01:46 PM)Trick_ link Wrote: [ -> ]I need to go back to school. I love to learn, but I don't want commit all my nights and weekends.
Also, I'm 24. I should probably grow up at some point.
Growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional*
Just because you get older doesn't mean you can't still enjoy some things you did when you were younger, I still never understand some of my old friends when they say "Well I dont have time for games anymore", well what do you do at night after you've gotten all work and any errands done "Oh, I watch TV"
</facepalm>
But then again, I really don't watch any TV at all...
Edit:
* This also does not mean acting less mature than should be expected for your age
(04-20-2010, 02:04 PM)Luinbariel link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=zaneyard link=topic=2632.msg147855#msg147855 date=1271789985]
think i'm going to learn to cook too
Good.
I think maybe an ultimatum might also be good (please note: jokes)
"Stop being sad or I'll rape you"
Easy as that.
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but but but
Also, I found out how to output music from my computer to my keyboard, and have it play through and I can play over it
Happy day when I learn how to add my own touch to Cake.
(04-20-2010, 02:12 PM)Caffeine link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=Trick_ link=topic=2632.msg147852#msg147852 date=1271789218]
I need to go back to school. I love to learn, but I don't want commit all my nights and weekends.
Also, I'm 24. I should probably grow up at some point.
Growing old is inevitable, growing up is optional*
Just because you get older doesn't mean you can't still enjoy some things you did when you were younger, I still never understand some of my old friends when they say "Well I dont have time for games anymore", well what do you do at night after you've gotten all work and any errands done "Oh, I watch TV"
</facepalm>
But then again, I really don't watch any TV at all...
Edit:
* This also does not mean acting less mature than should be expected for your age
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Iâll still be Trick, but my life will be changing a lot in the new week or so. I scraped together the $1,200 I need to sign up for my CFA, and I am going to sign up for it this weekend:
http://www.cfainstitute.org/Â So yah, I won't be gaming as much, but I won't be watching TV either. Time to study again.
Iâm also packing up my girlfriend and she is moving in with me. That's pretty big in and of itself. I also got put up for a huge promotion at work, which will require many more hours a week if I get it. I spent hundreds this weekend at JCrew starting to buy all new clothes again since Iâve been going to the gym so much, and I still need to buy a new suit to interview in.
Iâm also selling my mustang (sounds stupid, but itâs really sad for me) and getting a more practical car in the near future. Just a lot of changes, and I donât think I can game like I used to.
Like I said, time to grow up.Â