(07-30-2010, 03:36 AM)Didzo link Wrote: [ -> ][quote author=PyroZombie link=topic=3709.msg166885#msg166885 date=1280476040]
[quote author=Luinbariel link=topic=3709.msg166833#msg166833 date=1280459373]
[quote author=PyroZombie link=topic=3709.msg166828#msg166828 date=1280457458]
[quote author=Nitrous Oxide link=topic=3709.msg166802#msg166802 date=1280436385]
Man I sure hate that Didzo guy, always raging and yelling at people. What a loser.
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Hey. Shut up now, the joke is over and we should really stop wrecking the FML thread. K?
[/quote]Fine. Back to the point then:
I can't think straight anymore. My head has this one recurring thought, a thought that I've lived with for about two years now. I can't trust my family for help. I never have any time to talk to my close friends about stupid shit, let alone serious shit, so I use the time I have with them to shoot the shit. My best friend, for reasons I don't think he wants me spreading, is unavailable for possibly months more. I'm thinking about therapy, but there are 3 things stopping me, the price, the location, and the fact that I don't want to be fed pills with ridiculous side-effects like "voices in head now sing soprano" or "heightened chance of suicide" . What should I do?
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That depends what the recurring thought is. Keep in mind that a psychologist, social worker, or therapist cannot prescribe meds, while a psychiatrist can.Â
[/quote]The recurring thought is an event that took place 2 years ago, when I graduated. All morning I was happy, happy that I was finally getting rid of all these idiots, assholes, jerkoffs, and people who were combinations of all three. I finally got my freedom, but there was one piece of unresolved business, one that couldn't be left to the winds of change. When I approached the subject, It forced me to make a decision. One decision would allow the other person effected to live blissfully unaware while I would be left the
why I am. The other decision, tell the truth and possibly put someone in a miserable state. I've been bred to do the right thing all my life, instead of the things that satisfy my own gain, so I chose the best for said person.
Now I'm stuck questioning my own ideas, my own judgements, even my own reasoning and motives. A philosphophical perdition to which I wish to no one.
I think about it everyday and I have to distract myself with music and conversation to keep my mind from it, but it gets less and less effective. I've come to three places with this problem, none of them had answers, and with my luck, this place will be no different.
(07-30-2010, 09:44 AM)Luinbariel link Wrote: [ -> ]Second, Pyrozombie, you will not be "fed" pills. They are not going to just shove them down your throat without your consent, ESPECIALLY not if you are a minor.
There may also be counselling services in your area for free. Ask around and look around. I know there are where I am. Just do some looking around and you might turn up something useful.
I've taken a look while playing with you actually, The closest place is ten miles, convincing me that my town is the biggest fucking waste of space in the entire upper east.